| Oh Look At Me. I'm Covered In PuNk! |
[Jun. 21st, 2004|01:23 pm] |
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| | Portobella - Covered in Punk | ] |
This week has been quite interesting...
Wednesday, i met up with Becky first to go get her Holiday Plan vinyl in Kingston as she left it there...grrr Becky, make me get up so early. We get there, we have to get a bus as train tickets are too expensive as it's peak time, the shop's closed so we have to go back to Wimbledon and meet with Nick and Becky's friend. By the Way, if you didn't know, we were going up to the Holiday Plan gig at a record store in Soho. It was good, played a 5 song set which included Stories and Wasting Time. Got my EP signed and then managed to get Portobella and Foolproof's singles which are both reallllly good.
Thursday, Nick comes over at about 3pm and we just mucked about round here, played some Burnout 2 on my ps2 and then we went up to Islington Academy to see Sugarcult because The Fight and Foolproof were supporting. We get there to find out both aren't. Great. Still Sugarcult put a great show on and Division of Norma Jean weren't half bad either.
Friday, i met up with shaun and he said we should go into kingston to meet henri, kathy, and anastacia. So we do. We then go back to the Kathy's house and muck around there for abit. Laura comes over. I've met her once before but not many times. We then go back to Southfields and play football with me, shaun, ezaz, kathy and Laura. Fun.
Saturday, me, shaun, henri, sean, john, kathy, anastacia, laura, and Naomi (Laura's sister) go to the funfair. Very fun stuff. We then go to Hampton for Claire's little gathering and have fun there. I seemed quite rude though because i was really quiet because i had so much stuff on my mind but Claire knew it and she told me to talk to her which i did and it helped.
Sunday, Met up with Max and Henri and we went to go see the Chili Peppers. Chicks on speed are crap. Really crap, they got bottled off. James Brown rocked. Full Stop. Chili's put on such a amazing show, it was so much better than the London Arena gig last year. Henri and I managed to get this guy to give us some of his Pimm's as he was drunk and we started doing the Prince Charming dance...then the guy was so drunk he pissed on the floor and then was sick which left a huge circle around him...
Anywho, |
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| You Get me so Down, Down, Down |
[Jun. 9th, 2004|09:35 pm] |
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| | Blink 182 - Down | ] |
First of all: Big up to Lucy, my emo bredhin...for this recent comment in her LJ:
5)This boy is a dude and a half and one of the only people that fully appreciates my emoness. He's lost a lot of weight recently and is now incredibly skinny which is really scary. Please start eating again!!
I do eat though my dear!!! Anyhow, i have become really weird today, i started to write a movie script. I'm now 8 pages into the bloody thing...but it's turning out to be a good romantic story, one person has already said it has great potential...
Tomorrow, i have English, easy, then R.E on friday, easy.
This weekend: Nothing :( |
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| Your Lipstick, His Collar, Don't Bother Angel |
[Jun. 8th, 2004|04:41 pm] |
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| | Taking Back Sunday - Cute without the E | ] |
I can kiss goodbye to taking Psychology for A-level, i mean that maths GCSE was sooooo fucking hard. I asked about 20-30 people what they thought, exactly the same answer, God, if your reading this, please get me that B i need!!! The exams have all been ok really, Maths has been the only one so far that is actually been hard. Last Weekend, hmm went to Lucy's little gathering, was fun, but i mean her house, her mansion more like was huuuuuuge. It's a good place for a PARTY LUCY!!! Shame we were kicked out so early due to her parents coming back but lucky as well as we just caught the last train to which, on the way back, Shaun got in a fight with a student...and then we were chased off by security into wimbledon and escaped. Then we were told there was a house party in Cheam, so off on the 93 we went and guess what, it had finished!! Then we got lost and decided to go through the park to get back to the main road, i suggested we shouldn't seeing that it was cheam and guess what, as soon as we turn on the path, we are spotted by about 8 rudeboys on bikes and Voosh, we ran like hell and didn't stop.
Got back home at like 2.30am and did nothing on Sunday. Fun.
Monday was the science exams, easy, but still a little tough here and there.
And today, Maths. Great |
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| Run Thomas Run!!! |
[Jun. 4th, 2004|03:07 pm] |
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| |  lazy | ] |
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| | David Gray - This Year's Love | ] |
I'm happy, i did 3.5 miles in 28 minutes and didn't stop once, well only walking up the stairs to get to the first bridge...and i had no other choice and they were jammed pack with other runners. Clive came first with 23 minutes then moi with 28 minutes then rory with 35 minutes. It was really fun though, i beat like 3/4 of the adults who took part! ahhh i'm so cool.
And the half term is coming to a close :( and we will be back to the exams, anyway, i gotta cut this post short as Rob wants to play me at Red Alert 2. |
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| I Always hated Monks |
[Jun. 4th, 2004|03:06 pm] |
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| | Travis - Why Does It Always Rain on Me? | ] |
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| Mess With Me, I'll Kill Ya |
[Jun. 2nd, 2004|11:35 am] |
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| | The Smashing Pumpkins - Tonight, Tonight | ] |
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An Elvis man, you like you women dangerous and your steaks bloody. You often get wrapped up in landscapes and fail to realize the danger you put yourself into. Don't get cocky, and don't get caught. It might be good to lay off the drugs every once in a while. Just a suggestion.
Take the What Pulp Fiction Character Are You? quiz.
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| Would I, Choose Water Over Wine? |
[Jun. 1st, 2004|11:54 pm] |
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| | Incubus - Drive | ] |
Let me start:
Friday, Less Than Jake with Yellowcard. Brilliant, saw Maddy again, twas nice. Recorded some of the songs. Had fun. Got a lift back with Henri and then to sleep i went.
Saturday, nothing much happened really, just revision and guess what, hey! more revision, bet you didn't see that one coming did ya?!
Sunday, More revision but Claire's house party in the evening....met up with Shaun who was partially drunk and then with Sean and James and off we went to the house party. Met cool people, and i actually managed to get completely pissed! I got "in there" with some girl but can't really see that sparking off anything...
Monday, was supposed to do revision, but when i went into Wimbledon to get Incubus' album, i suggested becky and i met and so we did, which ended up meeting shaun which ended up going back to Claire's house and ended up us lot going to the Hippy Festival in Canbury Park...
Sunday, revision, then to Max's to go see Incubus. I reckon it was good, because they went for a more mellow chilled out mood which i really got into...max didn't though, all the way home he was like "why didn't they play this" "why didn't they play that" jeesh man, they can't play every song you want them to....
Alot of girls where there....alot.
Meh, i shuck, yes sHuck i dunno i feel that's the way to say it...i mean you try looking for a relationship but it doesn't come. There seemed like so many cool girls there tonight who i thought man why can't i have the guts to go up and talk to them? Meh, i'm always too shy to go up to a girl and be like "hey, blah blah blah" and all that cause i think they are just gonna be like "errrrr......no"
But hey, who knows....:( |
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| Could this be true?! |
[May. 22nd, 2004|09:48 pm] |
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Of Starvation eh? Hah, shows it'll probably be from trying to lose weight.... |
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| I am a Brand New Hero |
[May. 22nd, 2004|09:45 pm] |
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| | Eddie Murphy - RAW | ] |
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| Plus |
[May. 22nd, 2004|12:24 am] |
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| | Joy Division-Love Will Tear Us Apart | ] |
Oh, i forgot to say, Sam is joining Julian and I for the run, and we are currently going under the team name of:
TEAM SHIBBY!
Hurrah! |
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| Love Will Tear Us Apart Baby |
[May. 22nd, 2004|12:10 am] |
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| | Kiss - Crazy Crazy Nights | ] |
Quite a boring week this so called study leave has been really, been revising all week as probably realised by many but a few minor events here and there. I was talking to my ex and we were doing random questions and such and i asked her what her biggest regret was and she replied: "Well, erm probably not asking you out at Reel Big Fish" i was just stunned, i didn't say anything apart from wow.
Anyhow, Julian and i went to see Johnny Panic today, well, we saw them sound check and left because they were taking too long. On the way back, i see a little poster advertising a charity run and so i go on the website back home and propose to Julian that we enter as it'll be fun. So what do i do, enter myself and Julian saying we are 18, (unlikely they will check, as there will be about 600 people on the day) to run this thing, it's called the "Square Mile Run" so i was like yeah, i can easily take on a mile but i discover that it is infact:
3.5 MILES
EEeeeekk. I better step up my jogging sessions i do each day then. 3.5 miles? i mean i could probably do that as it is around southbank and i like that area and it probably won't seem as long to do.
Hmm, here's my calender for the next months:
24th May: First GCSE exam
28th May: Half term/Less Than Jake @ Brixton Academy
May 30th: Claire's house party
June 1st: Incubus @ Hammersmith Apollo
June 3rd: 3.5 Mile run in London
June 19th: RHCP @ Hyde Park
June 23rd: Last GCSE Fucking exam |
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| There She Goes....There She Goes Again |
[May. 18th, 2004|08:11 pm] |
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| |  blah | ] |
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| | 6 Pence none the Richer - Kiss Me | ] |
Hope all of you enjoyed that quiz i put in my journal, a chance to get to know abit about me. Anywho, here i am sat at my desk, in my room, in my house. Had an ok day, just been pressured to revise and revise due to these goddamn exams creeping up and attacking on monday. Argh.
Did Community Service today, you see, now that is fun, we just spent most of it outside in the garden and all the kids were trying to get the ball of robert and i, that probably made my day. Then i bumped into my brother at wimbledon station and he asked if i wanted to go to the common with him to play football with james and sam. So we did.
Well, nothing really emotional happening in my life, i'm not going to write another post going on about how much i need to get into a relationship, but i may be going backstage to the streets this weekend with maddy and so if we do that will be very very super duper as not only do i meet maddy again, i could be meeting good ol' mike skinner, what a lad. |
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| A little quiz for your pleasure |
[May. 17th, 2004|02:17 pm] |
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| | Keane - We Might As Well Be Strangers | ] |
Firsts:
First best friend: Stephen Carter
First car: Not old enough yet
First real kiss: Erm, some girl in devon...i can't remember, when i was about 13
First break-up: Maddy
First screen name: Jeesh, no clue, something about drums or blink 182
First funeral: Grandad
First pets: Cats, 4 to be exact
First piercing: soon to be lip
First credit card: Solo
First true love: Maddy
First musicians you remember hearing in your house: The Beatles...
lasts:
Last cigarette: about a month ago, twas my last
Last car ride: i walk to school now, so i haven't been in a car for abit..maybe 2 weeks?
Last kiss: in April
Last good cry: Ages upon ages ago, maybe my grandad's funeral?
Last library book checked out: Would of been a comic book to do some art with
Last movie seen: Troy
Last phone call: Max about tennis
Last time showered: We don't have a bathroom at the moment...
Last shoes worn: Adio
Last cd played: The Streets - A Grand Don't Come For Free
Last item bought: The Streets and Keane albums, jogging trousers
Last annoyance: Rudeboys
Last disappointment: Band practise not happening due to rory
Last time wanting to die: It wasn't wanting to die it was when i thought about what is the point of being put on this earth.
Last shirt worn: Famous Stars and Straps black 'F'
Last website visited: Before lj? eBay
Last word you said: To Mum: "Take that thing to be posted"
Last song you sang: The Streets - Fit But You Know it (I gotta learn it for Rob's girlfriends surprise birthday)
What is in your cd player?: The Streets in my hi-fi, a acoustic collection in my mini-disc.
What color socks are you wearing?: White.
What Color underwear are you wearing?: Grey
What's under your bed?: Bed sheets
What time did you wake up today?: 10am
Currents:
Current mood: Just Normal.
Current music: Keane - Somewhere only we know
Current hair: the just got out of bed look
Current clothes: Adidas jogging trousers, timberland t-shirt, grey boxers
Current annoyance(s): Nothing
Current desktop picture: a country house (this is my dad's computer)
Current book(s): None
Current color of toenails: Natural colour
Current time-wasting wish: Things to work out the way I want them too.
Current hate: GCSE exams
1. Black or white?: Black
2. Boxers or briefs: Boxers
3. Coke or Pepsi?: Diet Coke
4. Salt or pepper?: Pepper
5. Sweet or sour?: Sweet
6. Vanilla or chocolate?: Vanilla
7. Short or long?: Long (not grunge long, like near shoulder length)
8. Cheap or expensive?: depends on what, cheap for cds, expensive for something that is worth it
9. Firm or soft? Firm, relates to fruit, i like apples firm...
10. Hot or cold?: Depends. In Egypt, i liked to be in shade because it was too hot, when it's too cold at school i like to be hot.
My favorite...
1. Color is: Black, Blue
2. Song is: either: The Who-Baba O'Riley
3. Scent is: scent from a rose
4. Alcoholic beverage is: tequila shots, always fun
5. Food is: Chinese, mexican.
-5 things you are wearing right now:
+Underwear
+3/4 length trousers
+t-shirt
+socks
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-5 things you did so far today:
+Got up
+Put clothes on
+went for my jog
+revised
+revised
-5 things you can hear right now
+keane's album
+Typing
+Msn
+work going on in the new bathroom
+that's it really
-5 things you do when your bored:
+Listen to music
+write on this thing
+talk on msn
+watch family guy
+look on eBay
-5 people that never fail to cheer you up:
+Becky
+Kaela
+Lydz
+Sean
+Katie
-5 things you can't live without
+Music
+Gigs
+Family Guy
+America (if you've been to the places i've been to, they stunned me)
+Computer |
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| Ain't Love The Sweetest Thing |
[May. 15th, 2004|11:42 pm] |
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| | Box Car Racer - There Is | ] |
Heart bleeding post number deux.
Good news for some tonight then, Becky and Jonny are back together, well done. Bah what am i saying, i'm just gonna grow my teenage years lonely. Anyway, tomorrow, hmm what am i doing, going into wimbledon to get jogging trousers and to get the streets and keane's albums. Fun fun, then come back home to revise and jog, more fun.
What am i saying again, this post is just trying to hide up the fact i want to get into a relationship but it's something that will take time, time? time? i've spent nearly a year in time searching. Bleh, what did i do today? Nowt, revised but apart from that nowt.
This post is running dry, you all know what the true meaning of this post is trying to be. Sorry about being rude to you becky, kind of jealous how you got a nice little relationship going there! good luck with it! |
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| I'll be Waiting on Your Street Corner For You... |
[May. 12th, 2004|09:00 pm] |
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| | artistic | ] |
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| | Maroon 5 - Sweetest Goodbye | ] |
Had Community service on tuesday, great fun, i'll be sad to leave that place, i'm gonna see if we can do it in 6th form which i hope we can. Anyway, i got a reference from them and that rocked, makes me look like God on earth :p Rob and i are going down there after our GCSEs to help out with both days of their summer play as we enjoy going there so much. What else is there....not much really happened at school today, just that the GCSEs are coming up quite quickly and blah blah blah from the teachers,
I can't exactly write a book with what has happened so i'm gonna leave it from there...
Au Revoir
Tom |
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| We're Drifting Apart But I Want You To Know.. |
[May. 10th, 2004|07:56 pm] |
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| | Killswitch Engage - Rose of Sharyn | ] |
My day so far summed up in points for your reading points:
1. Went to School
2. Had my french oral exam
3. Found out my knuckle is infected
4. Had Jonny try and blame me for his problems with becky
5. Had some stupid person literally read my posts and laugh at them as if they were some sort of reading for their pleasure
6. Listened to Killswitch Engage's new song alot
More to point number five, some stupid person who i used to know read my livejournal post back when i was in a really really depressed mood, i may have wrote something which shouldn't of been said but they basically mocked at me because of it and probably will tell that person...great. |
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| Answers on a postcard please... |
[May. 9th, 2004|03:41 pm] |
01. Who are you and what's our relationship?
02. How and where did we meet?
03. What's my middle name?
04. How long have you known me?
05. How well do you think you know me?
06. When you first saw me what was your impression?
07. When is my birthday?
08. Colour eyes?
09. Have you ever had a crush on me?
10. What's one of my favorite things to do?
11. Do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you?
12. Would you consider me a friend?
13. Do you think i'm good looking?
14. How would you describe me to someone?
15. Have we kissed?
16. Would you ever date me?
17. Tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did.
18: What do you like most about me?
19: Have you ever seen me with my pants off?
20: If we could spend a day together what would we do?
21: Have we ever gotten in a fight?
22: Do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years?
If anyone should answer this, just reply to the post.... |
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| There's Feeling inside... |
[May. 9th, 2004|03:35 pm] |
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| | In Pain | ] |
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| | Elton John - Your Song | ] |
I'm going to keep this short due to injury :(
Anyhow, friday, met up with becky, saw Van Helsing, super duper fun, shame we couldn't do anything afterwards seeing as everything was closed...on saturday, i went to the guitar exhibition with everyone, was fun, but then in the evening, my finger on my right hand really really started hurting, i got up this morning and guess what, it had swollen all over, all over quite abit. So i bandaged it all up to stop movement as it hurts everytime i do move it. Problem is, i have a drum lesson tomorrow...eek.
I also have those things called french orals as well, fuck, i know for a fact i'm just going to freeze when i get in there, i hate speaking french out loud, and especially as it's being recorded.
Enjoy the post above this by the way..you better answer it...grrrr
Oh oh, i also may be seeing KISS this summer, how fucking rad is that, they play Florida when we're staying there, that is so fucking awesome! |
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| What's The Price To Pay For Glory? |
[May. 3rd, 2004|03:27 pm] |
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| | pissed off | ] |
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| | Eighties Matchbox B-line Disaster-Mister Mental | ] |
What is it with the people today?
I get told by Becky that Jonny has been pissing her around again. That make's this about 4 times now he's done this to my friend and he really pisses me off. The fact to make things worse is that he tried to get Becky to hate me by saying to her i said to him "Becky's been telling me stuff about you" when i didn't. Then i get told by Katie that:
"o well its nun of my business, but jonny told me that becky pulls other guys and shees told him that"
Hm, Jonny has now gone to Katie for sympathy when he cannot even hold up his own relationship? Who has he done this with? Rob, Max, Nick, and now Katie. Well done Jonny, you are the little backstabber aren't you...Oh, wait, i know who your trying to be! Your trying to be like your little lover Max!! Oh Jonny, you nearly fooled me.
Jonny = a mix of: Nick, Rory, Max, Tom Delonge, well everyone who he knows. He isn't a person, he's a clone. |
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| Stop Crying Your Heart Out |
[May. 2nd, 2004|02:16 pm] |
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| | artistic | ] |
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| | Blink 182 - What Went Wrong? | ] |
Stolen from at least 3 people...
1. studded belt - 2 points: 2
2. dyed black hair - 2 points: 0
3. thick rimed glasses - 2 points: 0
4. tight shirts/pants - 2 points each: 2
5. gaudy belt buckle - 2 points each: 2
6. clothing bought from a thrift store - 2 points each: 0
7. having hair with bangs longer than the rest - 2 points: 0
8. trucker hats - 2 points: 2
9. messenger bag - 3 points: 0
10. livejournal/myspace/friendster account - 2 points each: 2
11. saucony/new balance/ converse shoes - 2 points per pair: 2
12. mountian climbing key thingy - 2 points: 0
13. X'd up mosh gloves - 10 points: 5 (i have gloves with the fingers cut off)
14. scarf - 2 points: 2
15. refering to bands as acronym - 2 points: 0
16. vegan diet - 5 points: 0
17. vegitarian diet - for shame, no points: 0
18. food not bombs participation - 5 points: 5
19. straight edge - 5 points: 0
20. aspiring photographer - 3 points: 3
21. using adj from the late 80's/ early 90's (i.e. rad, gnarly, rockin', etc.) 1 point for each word in vernacular: ace, dude, wicked, sweet, bummer (5)
22. pins/buttons 1/2 point each: loads! 7
23. plugs/body piercings - 2 points each: 0
24. vinyl collection - 10 points: 0
25. moldy peaches fan - 10 points: 0
26. liking metal seriously - deduct 5 points: 0
27. liking metalcore - 5 points:
28. reading books over 300 pages long - 3 points: 3
39. riding a bike - 5 points: 0
30. participating in "teh mosh" - 5 points: 5
31. tea aficianado - 5 points: 0
32. writing poetry - 5 points: 5
33. attended 50 shows or more in a year - 5
34. attending hell fest - 5 points: 0
35. being in a band - 5 points: 5
36. working at an indy record store/health food store - 5 points: 0
37. clapping durring midpaced part of a song - 5 points : 5
=75
0-24 - poser! get out or be forced out.
25-44 - beginner. attend more shows, buy more records, you'll be fine.
45-74 - scenester. you've been around awhile and you know what's up, good job.
75 - or more - GOD! i bow to thee with your knowledge of everything hardcore |
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| The Separation Narrowed Down To A Fine Line |
[Apr. 25th, 2004|02:38 pm] |
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| | cheerful | ] |
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| | Staind - It's been a while | ] |
Yo Howdy Doo!
How are you? I'm good, why am i talking to my livejournal? Anywho, i went to Gonzo on Snow on Saturday in Milton Keynes, i.e America 2 to Rory and I and finally met Kaela who is super! The Holiday Plan and Million rocked my socks. Anyhow, had such a great time with Kaela and she introduced me to all her mates who are all classic characters. On the way back to the station, i saw some rudeboys and thought they were gonna try something and guess what, they were like "oi Blud" so we stopped and said what and they said have you got anything for us but then we said no and offered them a free T&T drink as we had about 20 due to them being free all day at the gig. So then they were like oh, cheers blud and walked off...weird.
We missed the last train and had to get a coach to Watford to get a train from there. It was like Battle Royale on that coach, there was this asian dude who looked like Takeshi Kitano and he wore a grey tracksuit! Arghhh!
Anyhow i got back for like 1am and it was cool. But overall, Saturday was so brilliant, excellante!
Muchos Grazis or something like that.. |
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| Blue eyed boy meets a brown eyed girl..Woah oha The Sweetest Thing |
[Apr. 21st, 2004|10:17 pm] |
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| |  tired | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | U2 - The Sweetest Thing | ] |
Walked to school today like always, nothing special there. Had Music, Science, Maths, English and History. Nothing special there, i walked home, nothing special there.
I get home, to get told by Rory he's WON a ticket to Gonzo on Snow so now i have a spare to get rid of. Anyone?
Anyway, Becky said she dreamt of me which i found interesting....details of that shall stay between moi and becky! Then i get told by my mate Charlotte she dreamt of me and details get abit intimate, then i get told by Maddy she had a dream about me. What the hell is going on?! Three girls dreaming about me? Might as well dream myself as nothing will happen with any of them... |
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| And You Give Yourself Away |
[Apr. 20th, 2004|09:25 pm] |
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| | calm | ] |
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| | David Gray - This Year's Love | ] |
It was weird, i listened to Baba O'Riley 4 times on the way to school today. i love that song, it makes me feel really good about myself when i need some inspiration. Anyway, i'm coming home from walking from school and to my house when there are these two stoooopid rudegirls walking up my road, anyhow, i'm there listening to Yellowcard and of course the stupid reactions start to take place
Rudegirl 1# "Oh, look it's a grunger, ew"
Then rudegirl 2# trys to stick out her foot to trip me but i walk around her and say
Me#: Stupid Prick
And i carry on walking into my house, they i hear her trying to say
Rudegirl 2# "oh i know where you live, watch you get a brick in your window"
So i gave her the finger, i mean i know exactly what she looks like, and i mean even though she won't do shit, police will be on my side really... |
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| It's only Teenage Wasteland. |
[Apr. 17th, 2004|11:28 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | WOOOO!!! | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | The Who - Baba O'Riley | ] |
Yo, sorry about before i was very happy, i still am infact. anyway let me explain in more detail.
I went to Kingston today with Rory and we went to some shop we always go in, anyway, i see a Nokia 7210 for £95 and i asked if i could trade in my phone for it and they said they'd give me £60 for it, probably more as i forgot to tell them i also have a camera with it. Anyway, so that's £35 for this brilliant phone.
Then we go see the Girl Next Door and i absolutly loved it to bits. I sound all gay and that but it touched me for some reason, i just found it quite sweet and very funny. I HAVE to get it as soon as it comes out on DVD and i'll probably see it another time or 2. The girl in it is toooo beautiful!
Then that finished, and Rory and i set off to the Peel to mainly see Send More Paramedics, they come on and blow the fuck away everyone including me mainly, the singer at the beginning came out from the crowd all zombie-ish with blood from his mouth and jumped on stage and they started. In a song called 'Zombified' the singer came into the pit and when he shouted 'Zombified' he gave me the mic and i screamed into it and i got to admit, by god i outdid myself! it was a pretty emo scream!!!
Rory and i decided that we're gonna get allllll this merchandise done for Lando and we're gonna record in my room using my mini-disc player and put it onto cd.
Anyway, if your reading this, I LURRRRRV YOU!!! :p I'm loving everyone tonight!
BECKY UPDATE YOUR GODDAMN JOURNAL YOU FOOLIO!!!! |
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| The Girl Next door |
[Apr. 17th, 2004|10:51 pm] |
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| | FUCKING GREAT! | ] |
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| | The Who - Baba O'Riley | ] |
I LOVE EVERYTHING!
I know it sounds weird but this film has done something to me, 'The Girl Next Door' is the best film i've seen for a while. It's inspired me to properly workout, lose weight and get a girlfriend. It's amazing i love that film, the soundtrack rocks and it's really sweet.
AGHHH!!!! I LOVE you if your reading this, yes you! |
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| And Then I Think It'll All Be Alright Because I Have You |
[Apr. 16th, 2004|10:29 pm] |
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| | Leftout? | ] |
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| | Plastic Bag Theme from American beauty | ] |
But the fact is, i don't have anyone and it ain't alright.
I'm here, at my computer missing out on a house party because of someone who lives here with me. Yes that thing called a mother. Oh, you haven't done enough revision...how about fuck you? It's cool though because the one reason why Rory is going tonight is currently on msn talking to me as she didn't end up going so.
I think there is something wrong with me. I downloaded the theme to the plastic bag bit in American Beauty and everytime i listen to it i realise things in my life.
I feel like abit of a prick, i was kind of rude to Becky because i had to get off quick as Rory and Nick were in fact looking at the screen and blah, so becky if you are reading this, I'm Sorry!!! |
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| You Know We Got A Good Thing Going |
[Apr. 15th, 2004|12:10 pm] |
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| | amused | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Reel Big Fish - Beer | ] |
And I Don't Wanna See It End...
Meh, last night sucked. Big time. I was sat here while Nick and Rory were at Ms.Backstabber's house. I talked to Rory last night i got pissed off at him due to this and blocked him. I talked to him this morning and apologized and said i was pissed off because i hate max and i know he's always trying to get Rory and Nick to join his band and in fact Rory told me he asked them but they were like No. Look's like everything's gonna be ok. |
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| If I Took Back Everything I Said, Would You Love Me Then? |
[Apr. 14th, 2004|10:05 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | Backstabbed? | ] |
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| | Less Than Jake - The Science of Selling Yourself Short | ] |
Right, that pisses me off. Do i have a best friend now? Well there's Becky, who she probably thinks she's just a mate to me, and then there's Rory, oh wait, he's now currently staying over at Max's with Nick. When the hell did that get into play when i said to Nick to come over later?
Hey, i wish i had one wish from a genie, and guess what, it'd be that little max would die a fucking horrible death because guess what, he's a BACKSTABBER.
He's all like, hey i look like i'm 8 years old, a girl, i have no penis but i'll buy my friends over with not caring if they pay me for concert tickets even though when it's TEF i'll make sure he pays...ahh fuck it, i ain't paying him shit for incubus or less than jake..awww poor maxy, gonna cry to your fucking "let's spoil him rotten" parents?
Today up til now was good though, Becky and i chilled out and kinda watched a episode of Family Guy? well we walked round the block and talked and shit which even though doesn't sound fun was. |
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| Do you really feel the way i feel? |
[Apr. 12th, 2004|05:23 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | calm | ] |
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| | Mark Cohn - Walking in Memphis | ] |
It's been a while hasn't it? Mucho has happened, Mucho has changed.
Went to Rome all last week and i was so scared about the weight changing as i came off the diet and i weighed myself today to discover that....*shock shock horror* that i haven't gained much, only 1 pound! Maybe that pray to God worked...
Anyway, it was fun, became really good mates with Niale and all of us were having jokes all week and the teachers weren't half bad as well, they even let us have beer and wine. I was writing down in my new diary all week and so alot of things YOU won't see are in there! Got back and the first person i talked to was Maddy and i said she should have a end of half term house party to which she lovingly agreed and i said i would be bouncer on the night. I really really do hope she holds one as it'd be great to see her again after Reel big fish and Goldfinger.
I saw Dawn of the Dead and the Passion as well and i must say, they both rocked. Dawn of the Dead is worth the money any day as i love films like that (i.e 28 days later where the world is empty) it's weird. Anyway, the Passion was amazing and i talked about it with my R.e teacher in Rome so everything was really clear.
Met up with Becky on the Sunday before i left to Rome and had coffee and watched Haggard, that was cool because we can talk about anything really and it won't fucking matter because she's not like something who tells anyone else.
Seeing Shaun of the dead tonight so i wonder how that'll compare to dawn of the dead even though it's a romantic comedy with zombies...
Fuck it, you know what, i was scared about getting involved in another relationship because of the whole process of the breaking up happening at one time or another but then now i'm like who cares, i'm missing not having someone there to talk to if i need someone properly |
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| But Now It's Getting Ugly |
[Mar. 2nd, 2004|06:13 pm] |
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| | determined | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Bubba Sparxxx - Ugly | ] |
Well i didn't mind today, my mum and i are back on talking terms like we always have been as she apologized to me. Today started off quite funny really, in assembly, the teacher was talking about what people had given up for lent, chocolate, computer games, and throughtout my good mate sean and i were laughing our heads off to ourselves. Oh yes, i forgot to say why didn't i? Well, the bet is between me, sean and chris. Yes i am going through lent without masturbation....ahh so immature yet so hard....
I've stuck to it so far! Yes i am telling the truth and i swear to God that i haven't!!!
We have science modules tomorrow, not too worried...or should i? Well i've done revision, gonna do abit more but i mean, i'll keep ya updated on all sections..
Speak to ya later... |
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| I've been working so hard...... |
[Mar. 1st, 2004|04:36 pm] |
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| |  infuriated | ] |
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| | Limp Bizkit - Underneath the gun | ] |
I hate my mum, i come in today and there she is and she's like Oh, you're looking really thin now, bullshit i am, i think i'd be happy if i was. And then she starts to try get into a argument with me of how i'm turning anorexic, what the fuck? Do i have fucking skinny and bony arms? no. I got so angry about how she think she's right and how my portions are tiny, how are they? i fucking had a PLATE full, a plate full of chicken, ham, broccoli, cheese and all this other food and there she is trying to be a boss and try against me. I was so angry i basically told her to fuck off and smoke herself to death, i know that's wrong, but i'm not going to apologize as she started the argument, she made the accusations, and everything else, but i'm not thin, and then she's like oh go on then tell me where your fat is. Oh yeah, so i so her, grabbing fat in places and she's like that's too keep you warm...WHAT THE FUCK your fucking body has something called chemicals to do that and reactions from the brain help that.
I ain't coming off this diet, she can try and try but i ain't coming off until i'm happy that i've lost what i've needed. |
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| I've seen these scars before |
[Feb. 26th, 2004|06:46 pm] |
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| | angry | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | HIM - The Sacrament | ] |
What is up with my friends? I organise with Nick for him to stay the night at my house last week, and suddenly he has to go to heatham house which is the shittest thing ever. He blows me off saying that his mum won't allow him to stay out two nights in a row when basically he's had me thinking he was going to stay at mine on friday all week long.
Then i got the fucking weight staying the same as well, why the fuck are you not losing any? I stick to the diet perfectly and nothing is coming off. |
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| I did it all just for her |
[Feb. 23rd, 2004|08:34 pm] |
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| | worried | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Him - Join me in death | ] |
Howdy, back at school i am....very thrilling. Hm, i forgot to add about my weekend apart from going to blink 182 at cd:uk. I went to see Something's gotta give at the cinema with my dad. I like doing that, i mean many could see it as like ah your so babyish seeing films with your dad but i enjoy it, it's so cool, i mean i dunno it's like a older version of playing catch somehow?
Ahhh yes, it seems to me i have some sort of a mysterious livejournal stalker to me, well only a stalker because they are remaining anonymous....
I go to see Merchant of Venice with Nick and his dad tomorrow, it'll be jokes we'll just muck around and do stuff which will be great.
Feeling i have? Not really big at the moment, nothing's really bothering me at the moment, just, well, i'm scared..yeah, i'm scared of the future, well not like ahhhh scared, just worried of what's going to happen, what's going to happen with university and jobs and moving out and all that.. |
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| Hope You Enjoy It This Time |
[Feb. 21st, 2004|07:31 pm] |
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| |  accomplished | ] |
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| | Blink 182 - The Rock Show | ] |
Well, looks like the half term is over, and boy, did it come to a great end. I get tickets to the cd:uk special of the brits....woo...apart from, Blink 182 are playing. Oh yes, did you hear me correctly? So i go and manage to get signed albums, drumstick from travis barker himself and a pick given to me by Tom. Not bad, but no pictures so that's kinda crap but hey, you can't have everything.
That's all i got to say at the moment, i can't write much due to my keyboard playing up... |
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| Now I Wanna Fall In Love |
[Feb. 15th, 2004|08:30 pm] |
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| | okay | ] |
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| | Him/Chris Issac - Wicked Game | ] |
Yes I'm listening to HIM, but this song has meaning, i mean read through the lyrics and you will be able to relate to them like that. I mean in my life, at first i didn't wanna go through a relationship after breaking up with my ex, but then after a period of time, you start to feel the urge for it again, quote "Now i wanna fall in love"
How comes it's so hard to go up to a girl and tell them that you like them?
The world was on fire, no - one could save me but you
It's strange what desire will make foolish people do
I'd never dreamed that I'd need somebody like you
And I'd never dreamed that I'd need somebody like you
No I don't wanna fall in love
This world is always gonna brake your heart
No I don't wanna fall in love
This world is always gonna brake your heart
... with you
What a wicked game to play
To make me feel this way
What a wicked thing to do
To let me dream of you
What a wicked thing to say
You never felt this way
What a wicked thing you do
To make me dream of you
No I don't wanna fall in love
This world is always gonna break your heart
No I don't wanna fall in love
This world is always gonna break your heart
... with you
The world was on fire, no - one could save me but you
It's strange what desire will make foolish people do
No and I never dreamed that I'd love somebody like you
I'll never dream that I lose somebody like you, no
Now I wanna fall in love
This world is always gonna break your heart
Now I wanna fall in lust
This world is always gonna break your heart
... with you
Nobody loves no - one |
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| I Miss You Singing Me To Sleep |
[Feb. 15th, 2004|07:17 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | uncomfortable | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | New Found Glory - Hit or Miss | ] |
Meh, i deserve more than this, here i am in one of my moods, about the diet. Again. Well i'm under 12 stone just, by like a pound or two but i mean if i'm not where i need to be tomorrow i'll be pissed. I mean i have skipped so much tempatation and i'm barely getting rewarded for it by my body which sucks so much.
I can't go out anywhere because i'm saving up for stuff for the Rome trip in April so i'll be occupied on the plane and what other stuff there is.
And i feel a stomach bug coming along...great |
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| It's so much better, When Everyone is in...are you in? |
[Feb. 14th, 2004|05:48 pm] |
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| |  sick | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Incubus - Are you In? | ] |
Don't fear, the dust hasn't settled yet....well, i'm back, from that week's absence. I'm sorry! Didn't mean to scare you...yeah..well Blink 182 again was last wednesday, used our fake passes and got to the vip lounge but when we went to get to the actual backstage area, the guard let us in but then we met the head of blink's tour security who basically told us to fuck off. Meh, i got a pick so that's me done really. Half term this week, and got off to a pretty fucked up start. I stayed at Nick's last night, pretty jokes, just watched films and ate stuff and planned to go to a gig tonight, but wait, i'm writing this at night so something must of happened. This really is going to show something about Nick in the future, i tell him i'll give him a call like a hour after i get home as i gotta have a wash and change. I then call him to get told by his dad that he's left to wimbledon to meet Rory. I call him and he's on the train at Waterloo and he's like uurrr you were supposed to call me, and i was like well didn't you have the sense to call me before you went without me you twat and basically hung up.
Meh, so i watched American Pie the wedding today and sat around chewing gum and listening to HIM. I'm going to Rome in easter with the school, should be good as Cormac, Mark and Robin are going so we'll just be in our little group having jokes.
And great, i have a blocked up nose and a cough... |
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| Do you really wanna know? |
[Feb. 5th, 2004|06:03 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | crushed | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Boxcar Racer - Elevator | ] |
Well, let's see how this diet is going....wow 12 stone, i've lost a stone. Still not enough, it's getting that bad i'm gonna starve myself tonight. Yup, that's what this fucking life and body is making me do.
Enjoy |
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| . |
[Feb. 4th, 2004|10:28 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | depressed | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Incubus - Drive | ] |
I've just had my mood in the worst way possible ever. Oh great, so Max and Nick and everyone goes up to Radio 1 without asking me to go and basically they just phone me up right now and boast about how they just met blink 182 and got everything and everything with Nick screaming Fat in the background.
I've fucking had enough of life, i hate what i am, i hate being fat, i hate everything, i hate my so-called friends, how comes they fucking met Blink 182, God, my life is so fucked up right now and i don't really want to carry on.
Great, so they all get like 10 picks and drumsticks and signed fucking everything and here i am fucking writing in some fucking shit little online journal which ain't gonna change shit.
Oh God, i can't bear anything anymore |
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| Hello there, the angel from my nightmare |
[Feb. 3rd, 2004|05:04 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Blink 182 - I Miss You | ] |
Passed a funeral today. It made me think about life. Fact didn't help i was listening to I Miss You by Blink 182 as well. It made me realise that maybe this diet could work and also how life can be stopped at any minute, any second in this life. I solemnly swear to this livejournal and to you, the person reading this now that i will lose this weight. Jonny replied to the e-mail which i sent him about all this crap about me stealing Becky and he knows i wouldn't and Nick is trying to stir it up.
Seems like the only thing i got left to finish off in this life is my weight... |
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| Under Pressure |
[Feb. 1st, 2004|05:40 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  nervous | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | David Bowie and Queen - under pressure | ] |
This weekend turned out better than i thought, The white stripe ruled on friday and i went to see School of Rock on saturday which was better than i imagined. Today i really just dossed around, the thing is i have confirmed i have lost a stone on this diet but the thing is, sunday dinner. It's happening tonight, and Dharla has come round with some massive batch of cookies you have ever seen. I had to have some, well maybe three. Ouch, i felt bad so i've just done 15 minutes of sit ups and i'm about to do 15 minutes of weights to work off those calories. I'm nervous because i'm wondering what my weight will be tomorrow.
I respect Becky, she's helped me in this diet, well in the last week really but still, she has been the only person to. |
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| I Just don't know what to do with myself |
[Jan. 31st, 2004|11:41 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | amused | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | The White Stripes - Ball and Biscuit | ] |
Friday was cool, i mean the school part sucked as always and i had to suffer another day of Max bumming up Nick cause he like sooo totally loves him and has to impress him. Jeesh i hate that boy.
Anyway, after school i met up with Becky for a coffee, Oh, we are so grown up! Anyway, that was really good, cause Becky just seems one of those people who knows what i mean when i talk about being immature and growing up. We had some really long talk about all the things on our minds and finished at 6. I then went to see The White Stripes at Brixton....ahhhh now that is what a gig should be. Amazing, then i got Meg White's drumstick which made it even better.
I had some weird dream about going to some go kart place which costed £40 for 5 minutes and then going to get my blink tickets but encountering some rudeboys who chased me back there...and then had to stop being pulled out the door by them (i was hanging onto the walls)
Anyway, ignore that, whatever my brain makes up for me as a dream i don't mind...
My standing blink 182 tickets came :D very excellent, and max thinks i'm gonna pay him for his little seating ticket? No |
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| I Suck |
[Jan. 29th, 2004|06:53 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | guilty | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Blink 182 - I Miss You | ] |
I suck
I suck
I suck
I just gave into the tempatation and had two cookies. Now i'm going to have to do more exercise to try and work it off. I hate fucking looking like this. People hate me, no one likes me and it's all horribly fucked up |
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| Why can't we just grow up? |
[Jan. 29th, 2004|05:16 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | pissed off | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Tim Burgess-We all need love | ] |
Hmm, Thursday, a day i look forward to, but today sucked. Why you may ask? Well, snow fell, i love snow but when it turns to ice, and you have to walk on it? Hmmmm bad bad bad. Even though i didn't fall it was annoying as i kept on slipping. So i get to school, first lesson r.e, Nick and his gay little buddy Tom are all like hah let's terrorise tef, well, kids, we are big boys now and go to secondary school. Don't you think that's a little bit immature? It get's to p.e. I decided to play basketball with 6 other people and then i come back to see that Mister big boy Tom has found it funny to change my shoes with another Boy. I find the shoes but he has changed my socks. Fuck it, i just wore the socks which were in my shoes.
Great, english. I come up to the room and we have a little immature bunch of pricks like oooo let's rush tef, hah it will be so funny. They didn't in the end as i managed to get out of that section of the corridor. I find it quite funny, i managed to get 2 standing tickets for blink for my mate henri and i. He comes into school saying Max is pissed because i won't be paying him for his seating ticket which he supposedly "Got" for me. Bullshit you tiny freak, i said to get standing tickets when they came out. You failed and got seating tickets. I ain't gonna pay for something which i'm not even using.
I come home, to find some little bunch of 11 year rudeboys to try and throw snowballs at me, the funny thing is, not only did i tell them to fuck off and get lifes, the snowballs missed me as well..... |
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| What? |
[Jan. 28th, 2004|08:31 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | determined | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Blink 182 - I Miss You | ] |
Today? what happened today, do you really want to know? Well too bad, i'm telling you. Got to school and realised that my interview with HIM was in kerrang, martin tries to be oh so cool by trying to cuss me by saying "So Tef, what inspired you lyrics?" Ohhh soo funny my dear fellow, can't you think of any decent cusses? I got home, tried to bid for 2 blink 182 standing tickets for Henri and I but noooo they go up to £80, so i don't get them.
I seem to have a reader in my journal, she likes my posts which has inspired me dearly.
I hate this diet, i hate how if you eat something bad, something "sinful" you gain weight. Last time i had a chocolate bar? three weeks, last time i tasted bread? three weeks, last time i tasted bacon? 8 hours ago. I'm not complaining, it's a good diet, and it's working but i just wish sometimes i would wake up and there you go, a new me, no more fat, no more pathetic cusses to stand against. Maybe this will give me inspiration, the only object which is giving me this power is Ville Valo. Yes, my picture with him seeing how skinny he is gives me inspiration, along with the fact i'm gonna buy a t-shirt a size smaller so i can fit into it.
God Help me |
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| You left me bleeding when i needed you the most |
[Jan. 24th, 2004|09:45 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | lonely | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Blink 182 - Down | ] |
I'm wanting love, it's everywhere i go and i ponder over it everytime i see a couple holding each other knowing that what would they do without each other. I saw Incubus today at CDUK, it was good but it wasn't. I was at the front right in front of Brandon and they played Megalomaniac and another song like twice through but when the crowd begged for more they looked at each other and i saw them mouth like do a couple more songs which i had begged for, then some twat from CD:UK came on and said they only had 5 minutes so they played 1 song and left. Mikey's guitar tech gave me a pick and then afterwards all of the band legged it to their cars and left, without signing one thing. one thing.
I feel so alone, the girl i fancy likes someone else, and i feel like there is no one to love in this world.
This song is soo what i'm feeling now, i don't know what to do....if only..if only
The drops of rain they fall all over
This awkward silence makes me crazy
The glow inside burns light upon her
I'll try to kiss you if you let me
(this can't be the end)
Tidal waves they rip right through me
Tears from eyes worn cold and sad
Pick me up now, I need you so bad
Down down down down
Down down down down
Down down down down
Down down down down
It gets me so
Down down down down
Down down down down
Down down down down
Down down down down
It gets me so
Your vows of silence fall all over
The look in your eyes makes me crazy
I feel the darkness break upon her
I'll take you over if you let me
(You did this)
Tidal waves they rip right through me
Tears from eyes worn cold and sad
Pick me up now, I need you so bad.
Down down down down
Down down down down
Down down down down
Down down down down
It gets me so
Down down down down
Down down down down
Down down down down
Down down down down
It gets me so
I'LL TRY TO KISS YOU IF YOU LET ME.....how i feel about two girls in my life and most people know who one of them is. |
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| Temptation |
[Jan. 21st, 2004|04:28 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  hungry | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | HIM - You Are The One | ] |
Someone is making me give in, i don't know who it is and what it is but someone wants me to stop this diet. I come down for breakfast and there, right where i cook in a plastic box are three biscuits, the type where half in chocolate covered. I managed to pull that through...just. Then at lunch max buys a hotdog and just eats the sausage and gives the bun to me. There i am looking at it comteplating whether just to give in there and then but i don't. I get home and look for soup to only find 2 massive packets of kit kats in the cupboard. I decide to take snack on a fucking turkey slice. It brings me down sometimes, seeing how everyone else can just pig out on everything they want and here i am eating meat and veg. Well it's been one week since the start and i'm glad to say i've lost half a stone and a pound on this diet. My aim is to get to 11 1/2 to 12 so i got half a stone left. The only things going is looking at how thin Ville Valo is and urging myself to get this t-shirt i love in a smaller size. |
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| The drugs won't work |
[Jan. 19th, 2004|07:36 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | depressed | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Metallica - The unnamed feeling | ] |
I'm depressed.
My best friend is being taken away from me by one of my mates right from underneath my nose. The girl i fancy likes someone else. I'm not sure if the weight is coming off. My life is fucked up and i'm the only one who knows about it. |
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| Pardon me angel |
[Jan. 18th, 2004|08:41 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | recumbent | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Ryan Adams - The Drugs not working | ] |
I really don't get it, i'm bothered by it but i don't like the girls (as friends yes but i mean fancy them) and my computer is fucking up on me. I Bring Shaun to Lucy's birthday party and he ends up getting it on with Ellie, Julian gets it on with Claire and then reveals she doesn't like Julian. Suddenly Shaun tells me that Claire likes him along with Ellie. It's weird i mean i can't really see Shaun being in a loving relationship. What i'm trying to say is that im annoyed of how girls go for boys even before they've seen their personality. Maybe this is just my jealousy talking of how i'm annoyed of being alone and i'm too coward to go up to one of the 2 girls i like and tell them i like them. |
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